I was reading a blog the other day where they were basically saying they feel like most people’s “blog” lives don’t seem real. I started thinking about this a lot over the past few weeks and I realized that in a way it is true. We portray ourselves the way we want the world to see us sometimes, in order to seem like we’ve got it all together. After giving it a little bit of thought I realized that this is probably due to people wanting to seem more positive and less “Debbie Downer” all the time. I mean who would want to read about every struggle right? It’s not really my style to put my negative emotions onto anyone else. Some things are personal, and I completely think that it’s fair to keep those things to yourself. I do however think that it’s important to be honest with your readers, when dealing with issues that they can relate to because that’s where growth happens. When you can really connect with someone because of situations that have happened or are happening.
For me the past few months haven’t been a huge piece of cake. There’s been frustrating times as of late where I wonder if I’m doing the right things, and where I wonder if what I have to offer is good enough. Here I am a 20-something who just finished her third degree, and I can’t seem to land a job that I want. Frustrations have been running high around here and I have days where I just blame myself, and think that I’m not good enough. I know those feelings won’t last and usually I snap out of it, but it’s still frustrating nonetheless. I went back to school because I wanted to pursue my passion, but what people don’t tell you is that reaching that passion isn’t just a one stop shop after graduation. There are twists and turns, and leaps and bounds that need to be made. Nothing is guaranteed. Ever.
One thing I’ve realized? It’s easy to throw a pity party, and it’s easy to just assume what you have isn’t enough to carry you over into the next step of your life. If you truly believe in your qualities and what you have to offer, something is bound to come along that’s a good fit. And these types of things can’t really be forced, ya know? I try to tell myself this every time I get frustrated with my situation. Life isn’t peachy all the time. I know I am doing the best I can in this moment, and staying positive is a huge part of that. I think we’re all entitled to our bad days though right? The ones where tears just need to come down so you can get yourself together and say “Hey YOU…you got this. You always did, you just need to go through the struggle to find where you need to be.” Nothing in life is easy, I truly believe that…and I think it’s easier to focus on the negative than the positive, but trust me…the positive is a lot of more gratifying.